MIXED FEELINGS

today i went to sch alone..im tired la...coz i didnt sleep frm 10 to 5 coz i watched man u vs bacelona n.....MANU WON...1~o...yeah...1st period ict.....HE READ MY BLOG!!!!ITS SO EMBARRASSING......haish......nw he noes hw i feel all tis while....i hope i hv nt hurt him.....aftr sch me n him,attika n naz,wati n azzad go to kfc...then we had so much fun...i will alwaes remember tis day..the guys bought the same food.they bought 2 pepsi,1cheese fries,1 mashed potatoe,1 zinger n 1 bandito..3 couples eating the same food...then first we ate cheese fries then potatoe then bandito then zinger....hehehehehe :) everything was the same....i really really had so much fun...then we study but naz went of early....then he keep asking me wat is the thing tat i kept frm him....i just cant lie to him...i feel so bad....end up i told him...abt tat sumone.....he was quite shocked...well....i feel guilty.i had played wit the sumone's heart....the sumone had cared n try to make my life better...but i did tis to the sumone......IM SOO SOO SORI....PLEASE FORGIVE ME.....sobs.at 5.30 we left.....tats all...my mixed feeling day.... ;) toodles

I LOVE YOU

i want to say I LOVE YOU

messy me........

look me in the eyes

YEAH!!!FINALLY!!!!WHEE~

today i didnt go to sch wit sumone...how sad :( then i reach sch the sumone like avoiding me..ala...i think i noe y....haish..just bcoz of that the sumone like this...i dont want our relationship is at distant just bcoz of that day..please.............talk to me........i miss those days......im so sori if i break your heart or hurt you.....i feel so bad......i noe im a bad person i deserve to be punish.....please talk to me... :( then recess time i n him.attika n naz,wati n azzad..we were spending time i class which we are nt suppose to.hehehe....after sch me n him,attika n naz,wati n azzad n thanesh went to mac to study...while walking i juz remembered my old unique hp that is still in the classrm...me n him straight away went to sch bck..coz his sim card is inside the hp...he said if the hp lost we share the sadness togethe,if we get the hp we share the happiness together... :) today is the first time me,attika n wati went out to study in pairs..i hope tis cn happen forever..

i feel awkward wen the indian girls keep looking at me like one kind like that seh...like they hate me like tat..wth.wat i hv done to them sia..nt happy isit...

I LOVE YOU muackxx

the song from me to you

"Never Had A Dream Come True"

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering

How it could be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory

I've lost all sense of time

and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use looking back or wondering

How it should be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my babyI never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head

Yes you will, say you will, you know you will

Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget

There's no use looking back or wondering

Because love is a strange and funny thing

No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye

No no no no

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say (words to say)

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you

28 april 08

well...go to school study....bla bla bla.....BUT.sumthing unexpected happen....well during recess thanesh,satesh n kartik bully me seh.....thanesh hang my wallet at the fence.wen i try to pull down my wallet i broke it.arh...they bullied me the whole recess.satesh took my handphone,thanesh n kartik hide my wallet...then after recess during ict i sat wit him n we had a talk.i dont noe hw to say to him hw i feel.it is so hard.hw i just wish u read my blog n noe exactly hw i feel.he told me tat he still love me.n he ask if i will give him another chance..it is so obvious i agree rite.im hapi,shock,loved again.... ;P hehehe.after sch we went home together..aww...it had been a long time i had nt went home with him...

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

with much love,
rizahgurl

FUN!!!!

25 April
today go sch with hakeem,attika,nazrin,jonathan n thanesh.....during english nothing much...onli tat i brought him an old charger for him...he told attika to tell me to bring...y cant he just tell me himself?i think he is shy to talk to me ar.....during recess his team of boys vs my team of girl to floorball..it was a tough fight....after the floorball....we had a free time to play for fun then at first i played wit kalay floorball...then he come...end up i played wit him...we running around like crazy...he run aftr me,i run aftr him,he tackle me,i tackle him.....hehehehe=D it was damn fun la...during recess jon say he going to be bitten up by sumone...i was quite worried...???????Y???questions in my head...aftr recess we r suppose to line up in the hall..but he didnt...he n another gerl waked up the fourth story of the lower sec blok....he was using the phone...i wonder wat happen....hm?????wen they were talking to him my ex was there too....haish......
advise to him.....u have created a problem you will have to solve it.....choices hv concequences u chose to do tat then u hv to face the results later.......
i hope nothing bad happens to him....well tats all i hv...
toodles....

April 24

we were wild...it had been a long time he distured me so badly....we were like the day b4 we were together...we were bitting each other's butt,throwing things at each others n others....it was fun.....i miss tat.....he was diff....i haven't seen him so hapi n playful b4 tis past few days......tats all....bubyes....

a bit weird....

23 april.....
i thought today will b the same mood as 22 april.it seems to be a bit diff.he talked to me nt like other days.it had been along time tat he had nt disturbed me..i miss him bullying me...during SS mrs leong ask sumone to help clean the board so i stand up to clean the board..coincidentally he also stand up to clean the board..it is quite embarrassing..just the 2 of us onli standing..both of us said"i clean the board"then i sit down i let him clean the board..aftr sch i Q 2 buy drink..he told attika to buy him green tea.then his fren Qing behind me also wanna buy.so hetold attika to buy another 1.but attika was busy...so i help her buy...in total i bought 4 green tea...he disturb me....i disturb him...and then we got to seperate........sobs.

22 APRIL!!!!

i had no time post tis on 22 april..

22 APRIL....if onli im still wit you....it will b our 2 mth of relationship...sob sob..during SS,at the com lab,u seat wit_______ at the teacher's table sharing the com.i went to the teacher's table to put my paper.aftr i put my paper on the table,_______ looked at me n say"hi darling"i replied"hi dear"wit my moody face..at tat time i saw he was looking at me..today is so called my emotional day..today is the first time i cried so badly in sch...sob sob.....he will nvr noe hw i feel....i just wish u noe tis...........
Dear sayang,
if u think by leaving me is the rite thing to for me...NO IT IS NT.if u think witout u im hapi..NO IM NT.if u think im hapi wit my frens witout u by my side...NO IM NT.if u think being away frm me,nt replying my msgs n being closer wit another gerl will make me forget you...NO NO NO IT DOESN'T.no matter wat u do,hw u act,hw bad u are i will still cherish u..the love n moments we had will nvr fade away..do u still love me?do u still hv feelings for me?do u remember the moments we had???if u dont love me just say it at the first place..u are killing me..our friendship is getting further n further...u say tat we patch but we r getting apart..if u think im nt hapi being wit u.NO im more than hapi..u had brighten my day wen u came to my life..nw it is a dungeon..I REALI REALI MISS YOU..YOU WILL ALWAYS B IN MY MUSEUM... love,as

typical day

today is just like the normal mondays...i feel like nt cming to sch..sch is like a dark room for me...i dont feel excited to go to sch again..going to sch n see u is like killing me....but no matter what u will alwaes b in my heart......haish..nw go to sch nvr talk to u just look at each other frm the peep of my eyes..just now it was the first time u disturb me aftr the break...i miss it.....btw nw im in the lab hving ict lesson...hehehe...nt doing anything!!!YAHOO!!!

memories

today as usual..but i thought bck the daes wit him...22 april will b my memorable dae.at the roof top garden u propose to me...haha...tat was the sweetest moments ever..then we always go to sch together..we purposely took 859 frm the interchange..aftr sch the macdonald is where we use to go almost everyday aftr sch to study n mingle around..then we use to take 859 to yishun then take the train back home..just to spend time together..we even didnt take the train tat came...we waited for the nxt train n the nxt train n the nxt train until we spended enough time together....i miss those times...wen i reached home he will msg and ask if i reach hm already or nt.n he will tell me tat he reached hm alreadi...i miss all ur msges n calls..21 march was the day we went to watch step up 2 at amk hub..it was fun n lovely..thankx for all tat i missed it alot..ARGH!!!!!!i just want to let you know tat u will alwas in my heart..our moments together we nvr fade away..i just hope you will change ur life to be a better person....

i miss you badly<3>

I CANT GET OVER IT!!!!

y must tis happen.....i hv alwaes thought u r my everything...i thought u will alwaes b by my side no matter wat....but.................haish.....i just want u to noe tat u r my first ever love tat i took it seriously n i REALLY REALLY love you...ALL the moments we had since we were very close frens beginning of the year......until we were together.....n until today....i will NEVER forget...I MISS YOU SOO SOOO MUCH.............i miss the days we go sch together,study together,laugh,joke together,go home together.....i miss ur sweet msgs.....ur calls n talks alwaes in my ears.....no matter wat i will treat u as my fren even though u hv killed me in and out......

I MISS YOU i want ur hugs and kisses.