IM CRAZY IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS YOU DEAR....
26 may
today went to sch for art enrichment..im like so hapi cause the nite b4 he msg me he wanted to mit me aftr my art enrichment outside sch n go 2 the elderly home 2gether.then aftr my class he say he at yishun already.so i went there wit teacher..im so hapi went i saw him at the elderly home.i really really extremely miss him...i thought tat it will be the last day i will b mitting him cause i cant go out anymore...ARH!!!!!but on tuesday he gt soccer.so i hope i cld see him.aftr tat we went to np..i n thanesh wanted to walk around 2 find him sumthing then he went 2 funland.while we walking out of power 9 i saw him cming up.i was like damn hapi.onli god noes hw i feel..but then aftr walking he n thanesh went to play at funland so i walk wit att,wati n hidayah..then we went off... :( i cant wait longger...im nt able to see him anymore....... :( i miss you like crazy...went it is my last day wit him...i want to hug him so tight like a teddy bear....
well at the elderly i met a talk to 2 elderly....nenek rahimah n nenek putih....they r nice..i really really pity them...i miss them...
27 may
HE DID NT CM FOR SOCCER!!!!!I MISS YOU DEAR....im sori i cld nt go out wit u...i feel so bad...he did nt reply my msg either...i think he gt another gurl already,who cn go out n acompany him whrever he wants to go...im sori i cldnt b by urside...i hope u hv a nice holiday..i will be missing...just remember i will always love you eventhough u are far frm me but u are near to my heart...love u dear...muackx

I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU i want a hug frm YOU

IM BACK!

hey im back...well tis past few days it had been a sad,angry,wild,crazy days....he msg me for the following nite.tat nite was even worst.it was a bad thing tat i slept at my moms room.if i knew it earlier i would hv slept in my own room..n i can ___as much as i want.haish...another swollen eyes the other day.hmm........y cnt he believe tat i reali reali love him?hw 2 prove him?my love for him is nt like the love i had b4.i hv nt run over a guy b4,i hv nt cry over a guy so badly b4,i hv nt fail badly 4 my exams n nt cncerntrate in class bcoz of a guy..u r the onli 1 im over for.u hv reali change me alot dear..

After all the tears and anger.we finali settled it...alhamdulillah....we decided to forget it...well actuali the 2 days of the time off...i tried to avoid frm seeing him(coz tats wat he wanted)..but it was so hard for me nt to see him during the 2 days.its like haish...just cnt stop frm seeing him.hw to make you believe tat u r the onli one i love.my love for u is nt the same wit other guys dear...

Our 3 mth anniversary just past.on the 22,im SOO HAPI tat it ended b4 our anni.finali get to talk n be by his side. :) dont worry k dear..my love for u will nvr fade even if im close wit another guy.close doesnt mean love.pls dont hv wild thinkings k.i will always love you.I WILL.it was the sports carnival during our anni day n sumthing sad n ANGRY thing happened.wan broke his memory card...WTF!wan is nvr satisfied.stil want to take revenge.the past is the past la...stil wan to blame me.watever la wan...u cn scold me n say watever u like abt me but my love for him will always remain.sorry dear bcoz of me u cnt play ur psp...im very very sori.....

well actuali im still plannig wat to buy for him..i still dont noe.i owe him a gift.hmm..well...I MISS HIM!!today was our last day of semester 1.im giong to miss u badly dear..hope you hv a wonderful trip to australia.hv fun ya...muackx.tats all..toodles ;)

I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU

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well didnt hv time to post tis few days..to at 3 am in the morning he suddenly msg me...i was hapi wen i saw his name..but the hapiness ended....m:me h:him
h:just saw ur msg..nw than tot of replying.
m:wah...ok...
h:go sleep la.dun waste ur time msgin
m:
h:dun waste time msgin ppl lyke me lah...just go to bed.i have heard enough abt u 4 1day...go sleep.
h:heard loadz of tings abt u tat i never wanted to hear...nvm i dun want to tok abt tat.jst stop msging and go to sleep k.
cant u understand wat i said?if u cnt sleep my problem izzit.i want to sleep oso u dun let.wads ur problem sia...ppl dun want to tokabt it oso u want to pester...damn kaypoh and irritating sia...ppl alr in bad mood u make ppl even worst...cn u jst shut up and go to sleep 4 good..!?
god noes wat i did after tat..

wen i woke up..my eyes was damn big i was my 1st worst night..after my religious class i had 2 go to lower seletar..for art exibition.all my memories wit him there came to me...i had no mood...n there i were thinking of him all the way....then he msg..im hapi at first but he said
"as cn we take a week time off 4rm each other?i just wan to 4get everything and be peaceful a while.arh.............sobs sobs......n others....i nt in the mood to say.......just wanna tell him tat...I LOVE YOU...im sori i could not make u hapi...sobs....ok gtg....my eyes r damn tired...nites...to be continued.......mayb

I LOVE YOU

Wheee~

YEAH!! today was the last paper..it was chemistry...well...it was ok..i did the whole paper but for section c i onli had to do 2 qns..damn it.

going on...

aftr sch me nad him did not noe where to go..me him wati azzad attika went to cwp.then say bye bye to attika..we went to banquet to eat..aftr eating we say bye bye to wati n azzad..so its left me n him...we seriously did nt noe where to go... i brought him to lower seletar..seletar i the memorable day wit haflo(ex)..but my life has move on...i n him sat at the same place i uasuali sit.hey!u noe wat nabilah's and attik's vandalisim is still there...hehehehehe...

i had a lovely time...thankx for the time spent..the day was prefect..windy n shady....ok the most embarrassing part is wen he lift me up...luckily there was noone there onli the cleaner...omg...it was the 1st time sumone carried me like a baby...hehehe..dont do tat again k dear...well..aftr today we nt meeting each other until thursday..wth..i miss him during the weekends n now another 2 days witout him..ARH!!!hope he msg me....thats all...toodles :P

I LOVE YOU

ART!!

today was art test....art made me go mad...i slept 2 am just to finish up my art...my art test was 3 hours..finalli art test is over nw i just have to concerntrate on chemistry...well..he finished at 11.15.i finished at 12.15.aftr sch me him n thanesh planned to go yishun polyclinic coz thanesh have a check up to go...otw to 859 busstop he like moody..didnt talk much wit me...at the busstop he sat away frm me n thanesh..in the bus we sat at the back of the bus..i sat 1 end he sat at the other end...we didnt communicate much.til we reach yishun..wen we reached poly we change our mind...we went back to yishun interchange n take 85 to sengkang...today he said he was sleepy.n he told me he slpet at 3.i told him to sleep earlier nxt time n he said it is his problem..dear,eventhough its your problem i care ok....i care about you..thats y i want you to study hard...k dear...thats all....toodles

8 may

well..on 8 may i didnt get to post because of the exams...:( well that day we had our math paper 2..it was ok..not so easy not so tough..can do..after math i planned to go changi airport to search for orchid.wellthe plan change.me,him,attika n wati went to amk instead.we went to eat at banquet n went to search for flowers.we searched around n finally theres a flower shop selling orchid,lilies...im soo hapi finali i got my orchid...all thankx to them...syg thank you so much for spending ur time for me..i reali appreciate it..luv u...he followed us and accompanied me where ever we go..hope u are nt mad.coz i made u guys walk rounds..then we went to ang mo kio library to do our art..but...he had to leave..so i send him till ang mo kio mrt.. :)i just cant leave him walking alone..hehehe..i said i the library frm 3 til 5+ just doing art..attika,wati thank you soo much....luv u guys...tats all toodles:p

I LOVE YOU dear

the day ive been waitting for..sobs

well for the weekend i didnt have time to post....but just wanna say i miss him.....sobs... :(

today.....the time i had been waiting for.....WE WENT TO PLAY POOL.....YAHOO!!!!i reali miss that place....i stopped going there ever since i broke u wit him...i got to think bck of the memories there wit him.. :) thanks dear...i hope u still remember.....i know u do.....then we went to amk hub..i got bullied the whole day seh...then we ate at mac opposite amk hub....i had so much fun....but sumthing happened went we were going home that makes me sad until nw....we were at the mrt station...then i say his gf waiting for him n i say im nt his gf....he say asked wat is his gf name...then i told him his gf is ________ .then his mood changed....wat sey...everytime i say the person's name he change....i said sori then he just kept quite..he didnt want to forgive me...sobs sobs :'( sayang please forgive me...im so soo sori...why do u always act this way wen i say the person's name...is there anything that happened that is haunting you...do you hv anything wit her???are you keeping sumthing frm me??or u still have feelings for her?i dont like this..i want to make u happy n forget the pass that is haunting you...i dont want you to keep this frm me....talk to me sayang...it is either you tell me or i know it myself...i want to be the reason for ur smile...i'll be hapi to see u happy...well thats all...bubyes... :(

I LOVE YOU<3

1st DAY OF EXAMINATION

tell me you love me
today was english paper 1 & 2.it was though la..haish...finalli english is over..after sch,we walked to sunplaza n went to kfc wit as usual,them.aftr food they left.i n him waited 4 wati to come bck.then he read my msges n i think he read 1 msg by that sumone that i hv nt delete.i think he feels that i hv sumthing wit the sumone......just to let you noe darling...i hv nthing wit the sumone...the word 'syg' hv no meaning....i still love u darling...that is y i gv you another chance to prove to me that you love me....dont take i seriously k darling.....

it had been onli a few hours i left you n i miss you alreadi...haish....wat to do....bcoz........

I LOVE YOU<3