miracle is life

I'll be there....

2009-03-14T06:14:00.000-07:00

You and I must make a pact

We must bring salvation back

Where there is love

I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you

I'll have faith in all you do

Just call my name

And I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you

Build my world of dreams around you

I'm so glad I found you yeah

I'll be there with a love so strong

I'll be your strength

You know I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter

Togetherness, well it's all I'm after

Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to protect you

With an unselfish love that respects you

Just call my name

And I'll be there

Chorus:

I'll be there to comfort you

Build my world of dreams around you

You know I'm so glad that I found you

I'll be there with a love so strong

I'll be your strength

You know I'll keep holding on

See, if you should ever find someone new

I know she better be good to you

'Cause if she doesn't then

I'll be there

Don't you know baby yeah yeah

I'll be thereI'll be there

Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there, baby

You know I'll be there

Just call my name and I'll be there

Just look over your shoulder

Just call my name and

I'll be there

song by:mariah carey

WILD WILD WET

2008-12-29T05:25:00.000-08:00

hello!

i went to wild wild wet on the 25th actuali..

it was fun.GREAT!

just hope to go there again someday..

oh well let the pictures do the talking...

ENJOY!!!

this is the scariest slide i've ride....

its the highest,fastest and with no barrier..

its like u can fall out anytime...

thats my cousin

he is the youngest..

thats my youngest brother

here we are...witout the 2 daddys

me and my mum

i feel like a kindergarten teacher...heehee

my brother and me....that thing is heavy

this are the young ones

they just make me smile

ain't he cute....

Tsunami!!!

Thats all....

if u guys hv nt went to wild wild wet..

u shld go...n try the elements they hv

it is really fun

till here,

toodles:)

I MISS OBS!!!

2008-12-02T08:57:00.000-08:00

OBS camp was shiok...
i met alot of new friends..
i was put to group 24 name MUNSHI
MUNSHI ROCKS!!!
im with geraldine,azim,jit and ismam
our school mixed with amk sec
gt to find out that im the onli mly girl in the group..
oh well...so what..
our instructor was Hairi..u rock!!imy..
our campsite is at camp 1 of obs..
the first day(24 nov) we canoe to camp 2..
it was tiring..im wit geraldine and yan ling
it was tiring..
then we pitched our tents then we had dinner(we had to cook)
then gathering for expedition the nxt day
the nxt day(25 nov)we learn the belay basics
then set off for the expedition..
we had to row a boat to KEKEK(small part at pulau ubin)
the people on my boat are
(me,jit,firdaus,azim,karen,faris,yanling n geraldine)
our boat was the fastest most of the time thanks to azim,karen,firdaus n faris
thanks guys..they pedal like carzy...
at KEKEK we overnight there witout a bath.
the nite there was amazing.u can see the stars so clear in the sky.
it was so lovely..
then the nxt day(26 nov) we set off to camp 2.
in the morning when we are rowing to set off..
our boat kept spining round and round at the same spot for 4x.
we got puzzled..the directions all was correct.
when hairi was about to tie a rope on our boats to pull us he asked if we hv pulled the anchor.so that was what caused our problem.
then we set off easily....
i find rowing the boat was fun.once i do it i cant stop.
when we reach camp 1. we packed our things needed n walk to camp 2
at camp 2 we pithed the tent and had dinner.
the nite there was cold.
it was raining heavily that nite and our fly shit flew away.
so the rain came in...damn cold that nite.
the nxt day we did Frying Fox(flying fox)
it was my 1st time doing it.
not scary at first but when i was about to jump the fear came.
after the jump it was fun..then we packed off to camp 1
walking to camp 2 and back to camp 1 reminds me of mount stong..
nvr gv up.with our damn heavy bags,the ups and downs.
like what mr lim always say reaching..
i miss uncle..i miss mount stong..
that nite we had nite walk witout touchlight.
it was fun.then we went in a tunnel in fours
i was wit ismam,jia qi and nicholas. we were the 1st group.
kind of scared cause u dont noe what is in the tunnel..
it was quite funny though..always feeling for jia qi's leg..
aftr that off to sleep for the last nite
the nxt day (28 nov) we had games and exercise
then we clean everything up and off we go back home :(
3 cheers for MUNSHI!HIP HIP!HOORAY!!
HIP HIP!HOORAY!!
HIP HIP!HOORAY!!
tat was munshi's last cheer b4 we leave..
I MISS OBS!!
I MISS MY NEW FRIENDS!!
I MISS HAIRI!!U ROCK!!

thats it for obs:D
hope to mit my friends again
and get together some day..
takecare

toodles:)

2008-11-23T09:11:00.000-08:00

well yesterday aftr the rain we went to sakura for dinner..
then went bowling...finally!
we left bowling at 12am n head home..

as for today aftr my religious class
me n friends took some pics before we leave
and will not be able to see them til nxt year... ):
then my parents picked me up
and i got a news that my aunt hv given birth to her baby boy!!
so we went home get changed and head to the hospital at abt 5
she was warded at thomson hospital..
it was my 1st time going there
the hospital didnt look like a hospital it looked like a hotel instead
it was nt bad la. then waited for my cousins and aunts to arrived
finally get to meet my cousins and aunts..miss them soo much
then me and my cousins went down to delifrance
took some pics and had something to eat n joke ard...
then went up and got ready to go home
spent a little time wit them but it was worth it
hairul!!!i want my pics!!!
then went to hv dinner
after that fetched my brothers and went home
now im packing for OBS tmr!!
haish packing is hard wen u are nt sure wat to bring...
hope the camp goes smoothly...hope to make alots of friends
till here

bye2 for 5 days!!
OBS here i come....
oh ya and it was good to here someone hapi
and got back together..
OH YA!!my ex msged me last nite
oh well blog abt that wen i return..
toodles :D

2008-11-22T01:26:00.000-08:00

okey....
today i went to get my little brother's
record book from madrasah
then went to Singapore expo
i went into the mega carnival
lucky it was not packed with people..
walked around shop a little eat and leave
then went to punggol to search for the punggol haunted house..
my mom wanted to see it live so my dad drove round punggol

till we ended up at punggol jetty
that is where i'll start my obs camp!!yeay!! :D
then dad drove in another way

the place is cripy and the road was like broken
there was like a big hole
it was lucky we didnt went ahead if nt we will be stuck there
then we decided to leave and go bowling!!
BUT bowling was packed with people!!
there was singapore youth competition...
then we went to another bowling centre
but it was also packed
this time there was a competition organise by a madrasah(not sure of which)
haish....so we decided to play bowling at night

so now im stuck at home...

and its raining...

till here will update tonite

toodles;D

2008-11-21T10:57:00.000-08:00

today was fine
it didnt go as planned though
slept ard 3 am last night
and woke up at 10 am today
soo sleepy..
oh well
then at about 2 went to watch madagascar 2
the story is funny...
n the animals are quite cute..
then went tuition
didnt go bowling:(
what shocked me today was..
my tuition ends at 8pm
but my dad came to pick me up at 7.20pm
yeah!!get to go of early..
i thought that there was something important we have to attend
instead me and my little brothers
went to my aunts house and stayed there
while my parents go dinner with my mom's colleges
then at about 12 we wnt hm
but my brothers stayed there
so now its onli me and my parents
the house is quiet without them
oh well
have to bare with it for 2 days...

thats all for today
miss my friends

toodles

OBS MEETING!!!

2008-11-20T08:59:00.000-08:00

today is not wat i expected it to be...
oh well
the breifing for the obs camp was fine
just cant wait for the camp
hope to mit new friends:D
just cant wait.
haish...
it is 3 more days to go..
still hvnt get my things ready for camp
hmm....
packing is the troublesome part...
aftr the briefing me and attika didnt noe whr to go
we ended up at mac
then went home then go tuition
then go fetch mom from dinner..
and back home....
nth much

feeling something is missing
didnt really feel well today...
OH YA!
tmr going bowling and watch movie wit my family
YEAH!!!! :D
hope tmr go as planned and it will be a great day
cant wait

till here
toodles

another great day

2008-11-19T08:38:00.000-08:00

on 18.11.2008
is another great day.me n attika planned to mit at sch..then she insist of waiting me at mac wit wati.and we ended up nt goin to sch.soo...attika told the soccer boys to mit us at mac..well she is missing someone so she want to mit the someone..hehehe..im hapi tats she is hapi tat day..the people who was came was azim,aidil,hakeem,khidir,nazrin,thanesh n another sec 4 guy(dnt noe his name)well we stayed at mac about an hour or less.then we went to np.we went to yishun library...AGAIN...hmm...spend time thr..then my cousin(abg zamir) came wit adrin..then the soccer boys went home..ape la..soo...me attika wati n zamir walked at np then sat at mac n hv some food.then we went off ard 4..tats what i did for the day.....
n oh ya..a pic of me wati and hidayah is in the teenage mag..OMG...
who the heck send our pic...none of us send it..hmmmm :/
oh well...it was a shocking news...

on 19.11.2oo8
i went to somenones hse to hv a massage..
at ard 2..
the massage was nice n relaxing..
but the part i hate most is drinkin the jamu...
yucks..the colour is like kunyit n the taste is like thrs powder inside..
thrs a rough taste..n the smell...i dont noe hw to explain..
i still cn taste the jamu in my mouth...
okey enough abt the drink..
then i went hm..
tats all about today..
tmr is OBS CAMP MEETING!!!
WOOHOOO!!!!
hope its another great day wit friends..

till here
toodles ;D

I MISS YOU

2008-11-17T06:52:00.000-08:00

oh my..
it has been soooo long i have nt blogged..

well here it goes again..

nw im gonna blog all the exciting part of my life

well,life hv as been great this few weeks..

love my boyfriends and GIRLFRINDS!!

love them the most..

they will always be part of my life

love u guys muah!

well...

past few days i had councillor camp,went padang had the BREATHE carnival and

I WENT TO SPAIN!!!

ARHH!!!i miss spain..i wish to go there again... :( oh well...
the carnival at padang was fun..we were WILD N CRAZY...

first time i was close with jit, ismam and suhaila..my laughing pills..hehe

i went home with attika, hakeem, jit, ismam and suhaila..

i felt soo hapi tat day...my sadness were all put aside..

it was great being with them..

the councillor camp was a nice experience eventhough there are certain downs...

but it was a fun and crazy day..the nite was crazy...

haish....it is always the nite wen the crazy sickness attack....

arhh....hw time flys...

nw..im wait for OBS CAMP!!!!

holiday is quite bored..

today i went out wit attika and wati...

thanks girlfriends for accompanying me..love ya

finally im out of hse wit friends...n also my lil brother..

well..we went mac to wait for my bro's(azzri) frens..

n they nvr came...they ended up at J8

so we went to library...

the yishun library was nt bad..

we stayed thr nt long...it was noise thr..

then we went to timezone...

we played Datona n one of a shooting game..

aftr tat we went mac to eat...

then went home..

at home all i did was go to my room,the door was close n stay in my rm

n started reading the dictionary,finding new words..

i didnt noe y i did tat for..hmm :/

it just struck my mind..n the 1st word i search for was 'love'

frm thr the dictionary was with me for the rest of the day..

i stayed in my rm as if thrs noone at hm...

at 7.30pm my family want to go out n eat..

so followed them wit my dict n music in my ears all the time..

the conversation started at the table..

then go home n chat n here i am now...

okey la...gonna slp..

hope tmr is another great day

thanks again girlfriends..

toodles

IM MOVING ON....

2008-08-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

my life is mpving on!!!!
YEAH!!!im forgetting the past n feeling much better..
i reali appreciate my frens help..
they nvr stop ecouraging me..
i love them so much...
i reali had trouble them alot...
hmm....feel like treating them..
well see hw..

hmm.......today is teacher's day..
i feel that this year's teacher's day is so rushy...
the performance did nt go very well..
then the mt kinabalu group of councillors did nt decorate the ava properly...
ms chong reali gt fedup..
we did a last min make over..
well...nvrmind its over...
its so sad tat i did nt get to go to my primary sch:'(
miss my frens..i stayed in sch til 1+ help 2 serve teachers...
haish fun n tiring.....
OH YA!!!...i nearly for got...
HAIRUL CAME TODAY!!!!
hehehehehehe
i was shocked!i reali miss him soooooo much...
well most of the ex navalites came...
after the tiring day i went hm sleep,bath n go tuition..
haish...nw chatting with my beloved frens...
i love them sooo much...
hope our relationship will last for ever...

loving them<3

on 22 july

2008-08-02T09:46:00.000-07:00

it was suppose to b our 4 mth anniversary...but......haish forget it.22nd will alwaes be a day for me to remember alwaes.it will alwaes be a part of me.
all the moments we had,all the pain we go through i will nvr foget.

all the love and hurts
we had been through together
will always be in my heart
forever and ever.....

4 JUNE

2008-07-31T08:58:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAE AS!!

hahaha..today is my birthday.

well ..i dont hv the mood to celebrate..

on tis day..

i also need to go to sch...

it was lucky that i didnt get a birthday bash..

but tat nite went to kak yani's hse n celebrated..

with my mum's side..

my birthday wish is to be able to b with him..
at least as a bestfriend..

I MISS YOU...

$ JUNE

2008-07-31T08:56:00.000-07:00

2 JUNE....WORST DAY...

2008-07-31T08:23:00.000-07:00

tis happened 2 days b4 my b'day..

went to sch again...for art...haish..
i though of going to UT wit satesh..i wanted to spend time wit him coz i reali reali miss him...
but instead sumthing bad happened..he was nt able to follow me..

then his cuzzin msg me through his hp said that he went out wit his gf witout his hp..
i dont noe wether it is true or nt..coz its kind of weird..
then his cuz told me everything..i was damn shocked...
i didnt noe wat to say..
then i msg him that nite..n we reali had a big fight..
i told him to pick one..its either me or her...
and he said...."i rather pick her"..
he scold me with vulgarities..he even criticised the mly girls..
not onli tat...he even CRITICISED MY MOTHER....
he reali hv no heart n feelings at all...

and....in the end...
WE BROKE UP
i noe tat tis will b my last day wit him.
i noe aftr tis there will not b any patching up...
gudbye forever... n he forgets my birthday is coming..
i dont think i hv the mood 2 celebrate..

IM DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU.i trusted you

28 may=D

2008-07-04T01:45:00.000-07:00

i went to sch for art...
then he ask me the previous nite if i cn go to sch wit him coz he gt bio class..
actuali im feeling sick...i gt fever,sore throt n running nose..
but i miss him so badly(tat was y im sick)
i woke up at 7 to mit him...then aftr 15 mins wit him..
we went to sch..n he went to his lesson..
then aftr sitting in the canteen for abt an hour,i wen to mac to mit attika..
i brought him breakfast as he wanted it..
then aftr he finish his lesson he went hm 1st..

sori for th late posts..

still in love
I LOVE YOU

IM CRAZY IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-26T23:49:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU DEAR....
26 may
today went to sch for art enrichment..im like so hapi cause the nite b4 he msg me he wanted to mit me aftr my art enrichment outside sch n go 2 the elderly home 2gether.then aftr my class he say he at yishun already.so i went there wit teacher..im so hapi went i saw him at the elderly home.i really really extremely miss him...i thought tat it will be the last day i will b mitting him cause i cant go out anymore...ARH!!!!!but on tuesday he gt soccer.so i hope i cld see him.aftr tat we went to np..i n thanesh wanted to walk around 2 find him sumthing then he went 2 funland.while we walking out of power 9 i saw him cming up.i was like damn hapi.onli god noes hw i feel..but then aftr walking he n thanesh went to play at funland so i walk wit att,wati n hidayah..then we went off... :( i cant wait longger...im nt able to see him anymore....... :( i miss you like crazy...went it is my last day wit him...i want to hug him so tight like a teddy bear....
well at the elderly i met a talk to 2 elderly....nenek rahimah n nenek putih....they r nice..i really really pity them...i miss them...
27 may
HE DID NT CM FOR SOCCER!!!!!I MISS YOU DEAR....im sori i cld nt go out wit u...i feel so bad...he did nt reply my msg either...i think he gt another gurl already,who cn go out n acompany him whrever he wants to go...im sori i cldnt b by urside...i hope u hv a nice holiday..i will be missing...just remember i will always love you eventhough u are far frm me but u are near to my heart...love u dear...muackx

I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU i want a hug frm YOU

IM BACK!

2008-05-23T08:50:00.000-07:00

hey im back...well tis past few days it had been a sad,angry,wild,crazy days....he msg me for the following nite.tat nite was even worst.it was a bad thing tat i slept at my moms room.if i knew it earlier i would hv slept in my own room..n i can ___as much as i want.haish...another swollen eyes the other day.hmm........y cnt he believe tat i reali reali love him?hw 2 prove him?my love for him is nt like the love i had b4.i hv nt run over a guy b4,i hv nt cry over a guy so badly b4,i hv nt fail badly 4 my exams n nt cncerntrate in class bcoz of a guy..u r the onli 1 im over for.u hv reali change me alot dear..

After all the tears and anger.we finali settled it...alhamdulillah....we decided to forget it...well actuali the 2 days of the time off...i tried to avoid frm seeing him(coz tats wat he wanted)..but it was so hard for me nt to see him during the 2 days.its like haish...just cnt stop frm seeing him.hw to make you believe tat u r the onli one i love.my love for u is nt the same wit other guys dear...

Our 3 mth anniversary just past.on the 22,im SOO HAPI tat it ended b4 our anni.finali get to talk n be by his side. :) dont worry k dear..my love for u will nvr fade even if im close wit another guy.close doesnt mean love.pls dont hv wild thinkings k.i will always love you.I WILL.it was the sports carnival during our anni day n sumthing sad n ANGRY thing happened.wan broke his memory card...WTF!wan is nvr satisfied.stil want to take revenge.the past is the past la...stil wan to blame me.watever la wan...u cn scold me n say watever u like abt me but my love for him will always remain.sorry dear bcoz of me u cnt play ur psp...im very very sori.....

well actuali im still plannig wat to buy for him..i still dont noe.i owe him a gift.hmm..well...I MISS HIM!!today was our last day of semester 1.im giong to miss u badly dear..hope you hv a wonderful trip to australia.hv fun ya...muackx.tats all..toodles ;)

I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU

.......................

2008-05-18T08:42:00.000-07:00

well didnt hv time to post tis few days..to at 3 am in the morning he suddenly msg me...i was hapi wen i saw his name..but the hapiness ended....m:me h:him
h:just saw ur msg..nw than tot of replying.
m:wah...ok...
h:go sleep la.dun waste ur time msgin
m:
h:dun waste time msgin ppl lyke me lah...just go to bed.i have heard enough abt u 4 1day...go sleep.
h:heard loadz of tings abt u tat i never wanted to hear...nvm i dun want to tok abt tat.jst stop msging and go to sleep k.
cant u understand wat i said?if u cnt sleep my problem izzit.i want to sleep oso u dun let.wads ur problem sia...ppl dun want to tokabt it oso u want to pester...damn kaypoh and irritating sia...ppl alr in bad mood u make ppl even worst...cn u jst shut up and go to sleep 4 good..!?
god noes wat i did after tat..

wen i woke up..my eyes was damn big i was my 1st worst night..after my religious class i had 2 go to lower seletar..for art exibition.all my memories wit him there came to me...i had no mood...n there i were thinking of him all the way....then he msg..im hapi at first but he said
"as cn we take a week time off 4rm each other?i just wan to 4get everything and be peaceful a while.arh.............sobs sobs......n others....i nt in the mood to say.......just wanna tell him tat...I LOVE YOU...im sori i could not make u hapi...sobs....ok gtg....my eyes r damn tired...nites...to be continued.......mayb

I LOVE YOU

Wheee~

2008-05-12T23:43:00.000-07:00

YEAH!! today was the last paper..it was chemistry...well...it was ok..i did the whole paper but for section c i onli had to do 2 qns..damn it.

going on...

aftr sch me nad him did not noe where to go..me him wati azzad attika went to cwp.then say bye bye to attika..we went to banquet to eat..aftr eating we say bye bye to wati n azzad..so its left me n him...we seriously did nt noe where to go... i brought him to lower seletar..seletar i the memorable day wit haflo(ex)..but my life has move on...i n him sat at the same place i uasuali sit.hey!u noe wat nabilah's and attik's vandalisim is still there...hehehehehe...

i had a lovely time...thankx for the time spent..the day was prefect..windy n shady....ok the most embarrassing part is wen he lift me up...luckily there was noone there onli the cleaner...omg...it was the 1st time sumone carried me like a baby...hehehe..dont do tat again k dear...well..aftr today we nt meeting each other until thursday..wth..i miss him during the weekends n now another 2 days witout him..ARH!!!hope he msg me....thats all...toodles :P

I LOVE YOU

ART!!

2008-05-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

today was art test....art made me go mad...i slept 2 am just to finish up my art...my art test was 3 hours..finalli art test is over nw i just have to concerntrate on chemistry...well..he finished at 11.15.i finished at 12.15.aftr sch me him n thanesh planned to go yishun polyclinic coz thanesh have a check up to go...otw to 859 busstop he like moody..didnt talk much wit me...at the busstop he sat away frm me n thanesh..in the bus we sat at the back of the bus..i sat 1 end he sat at the other end...we didnt communicate much.til we reach yishun..wen we reached poly we change our mind...we went back to yishun interchange n take 85 to sengkang...today he said he was sleepy.n he told me he slpet at 3.i told him to sleep earlier nxt time n he said it is his problem..dear,eventhough its your problem i care ok....i care about you..thats y i want you to study hard...k dear...thats all....toodles

8 may

2008-05-09T06:35:00.000-07:00

well..on 8 may i didnt get to post because of the exams...:( well that day we had our math paper 2..it was ok..not so easy not so tough..can do..after math i planned to go changi airport to search for orchid.wellthe plan change.me,him,attika n wati went to amk instead.we went to eat at banquet n went to search for flowers.we searched around n finally theres a flower shop selling orchid,lilies...im soo hapi finali i got my orchid...all thankx to them...syg thank you so much for spending ur time for me..i reali appreciate it..luv u...he followed us and accompanied me where ever we go..hope u are nt mad.coz i made u guys walk rounds..then we went to ang mo kio library to do our art..but...he had to leave..so i send him till ang mo kio mrt.. :)i just cant leave him walking alone..hehehe..i said i the library frm 3 til 5+ just doing art..attika,wati thank you soo much....luv u guys...tats all toodles:p

I LOVE YOU dear

the day ive been waitting for..sobs

2008-05-06T00:45:00.000-07:00

well for the weekend i didnt have time to post....but just wanna say i miss him.....sobs... :(

today.....the time i had been waiting for.....WE WENT TO PLAY POOL.....YAHOO!!!!i reali miss that place....i stopped going there ever since i broke u wit him...i got to think bck of the memories there wit him.. :) thanks dear...i hope u still remember.....i know u do.....then we went to amk hub..i got bullied the whole day seh...then we ate at mac opposite amk hub....i had so much fun....but sumthing happened went we were going home that makes me sad until nw....we were at the mrt station...then i say his gf waiting for him n i say im nt his gf....he say asked wat is his gf name...then i told him his gf is ________ .then his mood changed....wat sey...everytime i say the person's name he change....i said sori then he just kept quite..he didnt want to forgive me...sobs sobs :'( sayang please forgive me...im so soo sori...why do u always act this way wen i say the person's name...is there anything that happened that is haunting you...do you hv anything wit her???are you keeping sumthing frm me??or u still have feelings for her?i dont like this..i want to make u happy n forget the pass that is haunting you...i dont want you to keep this frm me....talk to me sayang...it is either you tell me or i know it myself...i want to be the reason for ur smile...i'll be hapi to see u happy...well thats all...bubyes... :(

I LOVE YOU<3

1st DAY OF EXAMINATION

2008-05-02T08:50:00.000-07:00

tell me you love me
today was english paper 1 & 2.it was though la..haish...finalli english is over..after sch,we walked to sunplaza n went to kfc wit as usual,them.aftr food they left.i n him waited 4 wati to come bck.then he read my msges n i think he read 1 msg by that sumone that i hv nt delete.i think he feels that i hv sumthing wit the sumone......just to let you noe darling...i hv nthing wit the sumone...the word 'syg' hv no meaning....i still love u darling...that is y i gv you another chance to prove to me that you love me....dont take i seriously k darling.....

it had been onli a few hours i left you n i miss you alreadi...haish....wat to do....bcoz........

I LOVE YOU<3

MIXED FEELINGS

2008-04-30T04:54:00.000-07:00

today i went to sch alone..im tired la...coz i didnt sleep frm 10 to 5 coz i watched man u vs bacelona n.....MANU WON...1~o...yeah...1st period ict.....HE READ MY BLOG!!!!ITS SO EMBARRASSING......haish......nw he noes hw i feel all tis while....i hope i hv nt hurt him.....aftr sch me n him,attika n naz,wati n azzad go to kfc...then we had so much fun...i will alwaes remember tis day..the guys bought the same food.they bought 2 pepsi,1cheese fries,1 mashed potatoe,1 zinger n 1 bandito..3 couples eating the same food...then first we ate cheese fries then potatoe then bandito then zinger....hehehehehe :) everything was the same....i really really had so much fun...then we study but naz went of early....then he keep asking me wat is the thing tat i kept frm him....i just cant lie to him...i feel so bad....end up i told him...abt tat sumone.....he was quite shocked...well....i feel guilty.i had played wit the sumone's heart....the sumone had cared n try to make my life better...but i did tis to the sumone......IM SOO SOO SORI....PLEASE FORGIVE ME.....sobs.at 5.30 we left.....tats all...my mixed feeling day.... ;) toodles

I LOVE YOU

2008-04-29T10:12:00.000-07:00

i want to say I LOVE YOU

messy me........

look me in the eyes

YEAH!!!FINALLY!!!!WHEE~

2008-04-29T09:49:00.000-07:00

today i didnt go to sch wit sumone...how sad :( then i reach sch the sumone like avoiding me..ala...i think i noe y....haish..just bcoz of that the sumone like this...i dont want our relationship is at distant just bcoz of that day..please.............talk to me........i miss those days......im so sori if i break your heart or hurt you.....i feel so bad......i noe im a bad person i deserve to be punish.....please talk to me... :( then recess time i n him.attika n naz,wati n azzad..we were spending time i class which we are nt suppose to.hehehe....after sch me n him,attika n naz,wati n azzad n thanesh went to mac to study...while walking i juz remembered my old unique hp that is still in the classrm...me n him straight away went to sch bck..coz his sim card is inside the hp...he said if the hp lost we share the sadness togethe,if we get the hp we share the happiness together... :) today is the first time me,attika n wati went out to study in pairs..i hope tis cn happen forever..

i feel awkward wen the indian girls keep looking at me like one kind like that seh...like they hate me like tat..wth.wat i hv done to them sia..nt happy isit...

I LOVE YOU muackxx

the song from me to you

2008-04-29T09:39:00.000-07:00

"Never Had A Dream Come True"

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering

How it could be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory

I've lost all sense of time

and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use looking back or wondering

How it should be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my babyI never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head

Yes you will, say you will, you know you will

Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget

There's no use looking back or wondering

Because love is a strange and funny thing

No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye

No no no no

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say (words to say)

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you

28 april 08

2008-04-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

well...go to school study....bla bla bla.....BUT.sumthing unexpected happen....well during recess thanesh,satesh n kartik bully me seh.....thanesh hang my wallet at the fence.wen i try to pull down my wallet i broke it.arh...they bullied me the whole recess.satesh took my handphone,thanesh n kartik hide my wallet...then after recess during ict i sat wit him n we had a talk.i dont noe hw to say to him hw i feel.it is so hard.hw i just wish u read my blog n noe exactly hw i feel.he told me tat he still love me.n he ask if i will give him another chance..it is so obvious i agree rite.im hapi,shock,loved again.... ;P hehehe.after sch we went home together..aww...it had been a long time i had nt went home with him...

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

with much love,
rizahgurl

FUN!!!!

2008-04-25T10:07:00.000-07:00

25 April
today go sch with hakeem,attika,nazrin,jonathan n thanesh.....during english nothing much...onli tat i brought him an old charger for him...he told attika to tell me to bring...y cant he just tell me himself?i think he is shy to talk to me ar.....during recess his team of boys vs my team of girl to floorball..it was a tough fight....after the floorball....we had a free time to play for fun then at first i played wit kalay floorball...then he come...end up i played wit him...we running around like crazy...he run aftr me,i run aftr him,he tackle me,i tackle him.....hehehehe=D it was damn fun la...during recess jon say he going to be bitten up by sumone...i was quite worried...???????Y???questions in my head...aftr recess we r suppose to line up in the hall..but he didnt...he n another gerl waked up the fourth story of the lower sec blok....he was using the phone...i wonder wat happen....hm?????wen they were talking to him my ex was there too....haish......
advise to him.....u have created a problem you will have to solve it.....choices hv concequences u chose to do tat then u hv to face the results later.......
i hope nothing bad happens to him....well tats all i hv...
toodles....

April 24

2008-04-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

we were wild...it had been a long time he distured me so badly....we were like the day b4 we were together...we were bitting each other's butt,throwing things at each others n others....it was fun.....i miss tat.....he was diff....i haven't seen him so hapi n playful b4 tis past few days......tats all....bubyes....

a bit weird....

2008-04-25T09:47:00.000-07:00

23 april.....
i thought today will b the same mood as 22 april.it seems to be a bit diff.he talked to me nt like other days.it had been along time tat he had nt disturbed me..i miss him bullying me...during SS mrs leong ask sumone to help clean the board so i stand up to clean the board..coincidentally he also stand up to clean the board..it is quite embarrassing..just the 2 of us onli standing..both of us said"i clean the board"then i sit down i let him clean the board..aftr sch i Q 2 buy drink..he told attika to buy him green tea.then his fren Qing behind me also wanna buy.so hetold attika to buy another 1.but attika was busy...so i help her buy...in total i bought 4 green tea...he disturb me....i disturb him...and then we got to seperate........sobs.

22 APRIL!!!!

2008-04-25T08:30:00.000-07:00

i had no time post tis on 22 april..

22 APRIL....if onli im still wit you....it will b our 2 mth of relationship...sob sob..during SS,at the com lab,u seat wit_______ at the teacher's table sharing the com.i went to the teacher's table to put my paper.aftr i put my paper on the table,_______ looked at me n say"hi darling"i replied"hi dear"wit my moody face..at tat time i saw he was looking at me..today is so called my emotional day..today is the first time i cried so badly in sch...sob sob.....he will nvr noe hw i feel....i just wish u noe tis...........
Dear sayang,
if u think by leaving me is the rite thing to for me...NO IT IS NT.if u think witout u im hapi..NO IM NT.if u think im hapi wit my frens witout u by my side...NO IM NT.if u think being away frm me,nt replying my msgs n being closer wit another gerl will make me forget you...NO NO NO IT DOESN'T.no matter wat u do,hw u act,hw bad u are i will still cherish u..the love n moments we had will nvr fade away..do u still love me?do u still hv feelings for me?do u remember the moments we had???if u dont love me just say it at the first place..u are killing me..our friendship is getting further n further...u say tat we patch but we r getting apart..if u think im nt hapi being wit u.NO im more than hapi..u had brighten my day wen u came to my life..nw it is a dungeon..I REALI REALI MISS YOU..YOU WILL ALWAYS B IN MY MUSEUM... love,as

typical day

2008-04-20T22:44:00.000-07:00

today is just like the normal mondays...i feel like nt cming to sch..sch is like a dark room for me...i dont feel excited to go to sch again..going to sch n see u is like killing me....but no matter what u will alwaes b in my heart......haish..nw go to sch nvr talk to u just look at each other frm the peep of my eyes..just now it was the first time u disturb me aftr the break...i miss it.....btw nw im in the lab hving ict lesson...hehehe...nt doing anything!!!YAHOO!!!

memories

2008-04-20T03:24:00.000-07:00

today as usual..but i thought bck the daes wit him...22 april will b my memorable dae.at the roof top garden u propose to me...haha...tat was the sweetest moments ever..then we always go to sch together..we purposely took 859 frm the interchange..aftr sch the macdonald is where we use to go almost everyday aftr sch to study n mingle around..then we use to take 859 to yishun then take the train back home..just to spend time together..we even didnt take the train tat came...we waited for the nxt train n the nxt train n the nxt train until we spended enough time together....i miss those times...wen i reached home he will msg and ask if i reach hm already or nt.n he will tell me tat he reached hm alreadi...i miss all ur msges n calls..21 march was the day we went to watch step up 2 at amk hub..it was fun n lovely..thankx for all tat i missed it alot..ARGH!!!!!!i just want to let you know tat u will alwas in my heart..our moments together we nvr fade away..i just hope you will change ur life to be a better person....

i miss you badly<3>

I CANT GET OVER IT!!!!

2008-04-18T05:17:00.000-07:00

y must tis happen.....i hv alwaes thought u r my everything...i thought u will alwaes b by my side no matter wat....but.................haish.....i just want u to noe tat u r my first ever love tat i took it seriously n i REALLY REALLY love you...ALL the moments we had since we were very close frens beginning of the year......until we were together.....n until today....i will NEVER forget...I MISS YOU SOO SOOO MUCH.............i miss the days we go sch together,study together,laugh,joke together,go home together.....i miss ur sweet msgs.....ur calls n talks alwaes in my ears.....no matter wat i will treat u as my fren even though u hv killed me in and out......

I MISS YOU i want ur hugs and kisses.

deep inside...hehehe..

2008-03-12T21:32:00.000-07:00

hey...todae need to wake up early to follow my mom to sch...haish...im so tired...after the tiring dae yesterdae...i played bowling wit my parents frm 9pm to 11pm...damn tired...im now at my moms work place...haish...i had just look through friendster.i think my ex has got a new girlfriend....he is so ****** .act onli in front of me..ckp je syg...watever la...u cn easily get another girl rite...y must cry....then nk cari pasal wit my guy....want to waste ur energy for wat...just get another girl ar....nw u get alreadi rite...hope u r hapi wit her n LAST LONG....u lied to me,u bastard me n acted in front of me...ill nvr forget that...so who ever is taking tis guy,gud luck...

my dear ex,

hope u find the perfect girl for you...last long and all the best for ur future....work hard.

love,

rizah

the day out

2008-03-11T01:49:00.000-07:00

today wen to sch again for the math class..but the onli difference was i didnt go wit him...he was lazy to cm..but actuali he has something on..so i met him after the class..after the class we wen to kfc to eat wit attika..aftr eating attika went to mit khalis..i and him went to amk hub..but we was there for a while cause he had to leave...n....a have to mit my cousin..its been along long time i had nt meet him n nw finali we met..i and my cousin was going round to survey hp..he wants to buy a new phone but he doesnt noe which phone is good...so i a companied him to np and cosway..in the end he picks the 1 at np.it was cheaper..after tat i went to peixin to mit my mom...